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April 06, 2008

Encounters #3: “I’m visiting a community”

At English L’Abri I contribute three hours a day to working around the property.  I take another three in which to look for answers to my questions.  I pay for a bed, three meals a day, and two tea breaks.  Nearly all of my time revolves around community.  
Therefore the correct response remained, “I’m visiting a community.”  Still, no stamp appeared.  My passport lay open, the customs agent’s eyes remained glazed, and the question was repeated, “What is the purpose of your visit?”
    I decided to ramp it up a notch since the word community continued to baffle him.  
    “I’m visiting a religious community.  I’m very religious.  It’s like a monastery.  I’ll probably pray a lot.”
    His eyes focused immediately into a baffled but humorous stare.  
    “So, you’re going to a monastery… to pray… to Jesus… for three months.”
    After a minor Machiavellian struggle inside my conscience, but without breaking eye contact I smiled and said, “Yep, that’s pretty much it.”  He laughed, shook his head, stamped my passport, and replied, “Well, say a prayer for me then.”  To date, God has received three on his behalf.  But in actual fact, I pray far more here than I thought I would.  Community can do that to a person, generally because they rarely see it coming.
    In some circles, L’Abri conjures great visions of the ideal, and mistakenly requires little explanation.  Mostly, I don’t run in those circles, and nearly all my verbal fumbling for description has been met with supportive but confused well-wishing for my visit to England.  I’m not visiting England, I’m visiting a community.  Even knowing this, I still find myself asking “What is community?” and, “Did I really ask for this?”
    Community is subtle.  It can be found with a garden fork, a wheel-barrow, or a dust-mop and rags.  But somehow gathering around ideas, or a cup of tea in the morning, or even a film discussion seems more obvious.  But the question remains, is that community?
    Community is exchange.  It seems very clear after a great lecture, a game of volleyball, or a particularly good meal and conversation.  But what is community?  It seems less clear with despair, brokenness, or criticism.  Yet they must be faced, and they are very punctual guests here.  They arrive smiling or crying, quietly or grumbling, in subtle shades or broad brush strokes.  But they are often given back with slow slender hints of hope, grace, and longing.
    Community is participation.  This stands out as people share their talents at High Tea, pray together on a Monday morning, or take trips with each other on a day off.  But is this community?  More often community walks alongside of someone in their questions and personal darkness, it argues against itself in order to learn boundaries, and refuses to draw back from the radical other who thinks, talks, and acts so differently.
    Community is no easy thing.  For at its heart, it implies something gathered around, not merely what is done.  And so we gather here in this place, whether we see it coming or not, asking for the extension of hospitality even before we are able to articulate it, participating as much or as little as we are able and asking with stuttering, frustrated or broken speech for this subtle exchange.   
      
By Jeff Adam’s (Student at L’Abri, spring term, 2008)

March 14, 2008

Encounters #2

"The Shelter"

It is these things I have to believe: The fire in front of me fake though it was, burned dark and crisp, that kind of ridiculous heat that comes from a fire source that isn't quite believable. The old man shifted in his chair, stretched out the arms of his sweater and crossed his legs in front of him. Leaning back in his seat, his eyes lifted to the ceiling and he muttered, "mmm...yes, I remember now, that was a time when I felt as though I had nothing left to stand on. I sold everything I had except what could fit inside my car and set out across the channel on a ferry for Switzerland. There I was, pacing up and down the edge of the ferry in a state, tears streaming down my face and in total confusion. Glancing at the sky only long enough to say 'God, what the hell is going on?!' There was nothing that I could be totally certain about, I knew only to trust that the choices I was making were kept safe inside of the hand of God." All of this he said as though it meant much more than I could know. And it seemed that his experience of it gave it depth. For at that moment he existed on the side of the ship, leaving familiar shores for unknown ends.

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March 09, 2008

Encounters #1

Maggie Curry, a worker at English L’Abri, writes the following.   She grew up as child at the Manor.  After a number of years in Nepal she returned with her family to be a worker. What you will read her is a narrative drawn from interviews with former students.


We stood at the front door of solid oak.  It looked to my eight year old eyes like a church door weighted with all kinds of mystery.  This was to be our new home.  This towering English Manor House with its dark, echoing rooms and empty stairs.  We felt small and inadequate, huddled there on a cold January afternoon; a mum, a dad and three children, waiting for our future to start.  It would be a future that would bring warmth and welcome to hundreds, who like us, turned the heavy handle and went in.

Thirty-four years later, Sarah would be one to turn that heavy handle.  She had arrived at L’Abri carrying that same little bag she had toted around France for the last few months.  The same bag she had packed to leave home right after her eighteenth birthday.  “France was everything I thought I wanted” Sarah told me, “beautiful, no responsibilities.  I could do whatever I wanted.”  However, Sarah’s sister who had always maintained a strong faith and was concerned for her wandering sibling, mentioned L’Abri as a place she could go.  “I was always jealous of my sister”, Sarah says, “I always thought I was not the kind of person who could ever have her kind of faith.  When I showed up in France, I didn’t know whether I was a Christian or not, but I had sort of given up trying to practice my faith.” 

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